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I am 16 years old. I am in 12th standard and science stream. I did extremely good by grabbing 2nd position in my high school. But still, not being on 1st position upsets me. I am trying my best to hold 1st position in upcoming boards. My full concentration is on my studies. I never had friends, like real friends. But recently there's a new girl in our class- Preeti. She is very bubbly. Average in studies but a good sense of humour. I enjoy her company a lot.
"Have you solved this question?" I asked Preeti after completing my assignment. I looked at her but she wasn't even looking at me. I saw her staring in one direction with a smiling face. I saw in the direction and as always- Sachin, the heartthrob of school. I hit her head from back.
"Ooouch" she screamed turning and rubbing her head. "What is your problem?" She asked making an annoying face." My problem? You came to me to understand these concepts and now you are wasting both of our time by ogling on some random guy" she scolded her. Her eyes widened. "What? Random? Are you serious? He isn't random. He is special. Can't you see every girl in school dies for him" she said in flattering voice and started staring him again.
I rolled my eyes. I understood that there is no use of explaining her anything. I got busy in my studies. I noticed Preeti also took out one of her books and was reading it as his prince charming left from there.
"Hi, Arti" i heard a manly voice from behind. I turned to look ,so did Preeti. It was Sachin. We have talked earlier too but only in concern of studies. Not more than that ever. And not forget to mention, he was the one who grabbed 1st position in previous boards. "Oh, hi" i said with a weak smile. He came and sat on the chair in front of mine. He took out a book from his bag."hi, Sachin" Preeti said waving her hand lightly. He smiled at her.
"Arti, i have got this book last week. Trust me, it's a very good book for calculus part. You must do questions from it. It will help you a lot." He said offering me that book. "Ummm....." I was about to say something but " you can give this to me, you see, i need this book more than her. I am weak in mathematics." She said and looked at both of us. He smiled awkwardly. "Actually, you are weak. This is why you won't be able to attempt this book's question. You should pay attention to textbooks first. After you complete them then please let me know, i ll definitely give you this book." He said with a warm smile. This is what I like about him. Though he is handsome, intelligent and popular. Yet, he is always down to earth and never shows rudeness to anyone. "Thank you" i said taking book from his hand. He nodded and smile.
He stood up and walked a bit but stopped "and yes, i remember you had some doubts in determinants. I ll explain them to you in last hour of school. Ok?" He said. I nodded. "Well! I am also having doubts in that chapter. May I join you too?" Preeti asked with hope. "Really, have you completed matrices?" He asked. I closed my eyes in praying to god to let her not speak something stupid. "Ohh...which chapter is that?" She whispered in my ears but loud enough him to hear. He laughed. We both looked at him. This was embarrassing. He left.
"I don't understand, why does he always give you attention? Huh?" She complained. We were on the way back to her home from school. We were walking." Because,he wants to help me in studies. That's it" i responded. "Ohh, please. Who help their competitors unless and until they feel something for them" she said whispering last part with a smile. My eyes widened. "What? Do you even know what are you talking about?" I said in a defensive tone. "And how can you be so Dumb to not know that matrices is important to understand determinants!" I continued trying to change the topic. "See, this is why he likes you because you are different from all the girls in our class" she said. "Don't assume things on your own. There are other studios girls in our class." I said rolling my eyes. "See, they are studious but not as much as you. And even if they are. You don't put layers on your face like they do to get his attention." I looked at her with wide eyes and gave her 'look who is talking' look. "Okay, i do that too but it doesn't work at all" she said defensively. I rolled my eyes. "Arti, he is into you and the way i can see, he will soon express his feelings." She said hugging me. "Aggghh" i pushed her away. " We will see" i said and got into my home.
Is Preeti right?
Does really Sachin like me?
But i shouldn't be thinking this way. I must pay attention to my studies.
I brushed all the thoughts out of my mind and started doing my studies.
'he will soon express his feelings' Preeti's words echoed in my eyes.
Will he?
If he will then what would i say?
'you like him too. Don't deny. His charm has attracted you to towards him' my mind yelled.
I opened the book he gave me to study. I did few questions from it and i must say that this book is really useful. After few pages, i found a note in it. I knew that it is wrong to read someone's note but who would know if i read it. To my surprise, that note was for me only. It says:-
Dear Arti
I have been longing to say this for very long. But couldn't gather my courage to speak in front of you. This is why I am giving this letter to you to express my feelings. I like you a lot. Infact more than a lot. I have never seen a girl as hardworking as you. I always think about you. Now, i can't deny my feelings anymore. If you feel the same about me, then please come behind civil park on Sunday evening. I shall be waiting for you.
Sachin
Oh my god! What is this?
What should I do now?
Should I tell this Preeti? No, i can't.
Wait
Sunday evening?
He means tomorrow.
I can't pay attention to studies anymore. All i was thinking about his letter and his confession.
"Mommy, i am going to Preeti's house. There is some work. I ll be back within an hour." I said mommy. "Okay beta, but come before papa comes. Okay?" She said while chopping vegetables. I just nodded. I took my bicycle and ride to her house.
I rang her door bell and as soon as she opened the door, she dragged me to her room. Wait! Why is she excited? I should the one excited. I didn't even tell her something. She locked the door and made me sit on her bed.
"Why are you so excited? Haa?" I asked her. She didn't say anything. She just smiled. And went to her wardrobe and took out a book from it. I didn't understand.
"You are happy because of this book?" I asked her furrowing my eyebrows. She nodded excitedly. "Huh! Since when book has started making you happy?" I asked. " This is not your any subject's book" she said. I got suspicious. "It's a story book" she came towards my ears as if she is telling me some top secret." A romantic erotica"she whispered. I am surprised. No! I was shocked. "What! Where did you get it from?" I asked. "It doesn't matter. It's amazing." She has with a very wide smile.
"By the way, did you have any work? I mean, why did you come?" She asked. I decided to not to tell her anything about Sachin. "Nothing, i was just missing you" i said faking my smile. She looked at me with suspicion as if she didn't believe. "Hmmm.....cab you give me this book? I ll return you soon" i asked her with hope. She was surprised now. "You really want to read this?" She asked me showing the book. "I just want to give it a try" i said and she smiled at devilishly. I snatched the book from her hands and left. "Enjoy yourself" i heard her yelling from back with some giggles.
I didn't believe this, i have got an erotica.
Have I done wrong?
I shouldn't have taken this book from her.
'but once, it doesn't harm' my subconscious mind argued.
I took the book to my room hiding it from my parents. I locked the door from inside. For the first time in life,i checked my locked door twice like i am going to something wrong.
'.......the moment he touched my lips. My eyes got shut automatically. He had full control over my body.......' i was reading.
' ......his touch was making me more than sensitive ever......' i continued reading.
With each line, i felt a jolt of thunder through my body. Specially, down.
'.......the second when his tongue met my core........' that's it. I couldn't take this anymore. This excitement is so new and overwhelming for me that i couldn't handle it anymore. I closed the book and got into the bed to sleep.
I tried to sleep but sleep was so far from my eyes.
Why have I read this?
Why am i feeling so restless?
Is it even natural or something is wrong with me?
Should I talk to Preeti?
No, no. She will make fun of me.
Oh goooooo! I shouldn't have read this.
Sachin- suddenly his thought made me smile.
I am going to confess my feelings for him.
I shall tell him that I like him too.
I smiled and drift into sleep.
I woke up happily. I don't know but i was smiling continuosly. I was happy. Actually very happy. For the first time, i was trying to make different hair styles and checking them out in mirror. I wanted to look perfect for him. I selected my best outfit to wear in evening.
"Ohh, i see that my little princess has grown up. Haa?" I heard my mom saying from behind looking me through mirror with a smile.
I turned back suddenly, i was embarrassed.
"Mommy, it's not like....."
" It's okay beta. It's okay for girls in your age" she said cutting my words.
Should I tell her about Sachin. Of course, i should. She has always supported. She will understand me this time too. She will guide me better. I never hide things from her.
I was about to tell her. But she interpreted.
"I am so lucky to have a daughter like you. Otherwise, today's girls are way far than our imaginations" she said sadly as if she was thinking about someone. "What happened mommy? Is everything ok?" I asked and sat down on bed beside her. "Everything is okay with us but do you know about Shikha." I nodded and she continued talking. "She ran away with a boy from her college." She said. My ears caught her words. My eyes widened. "Don't know what happened to girls these days. But i know, my girl can never led me down" she said touching my cheeks with her palm. I could only smile back.
No, i can't tell her anything.
If i do, then she will go insane.
And papa, he will kill me.
But am i doing anything wrong?
Is it really that bad to deserve hate from everyone around society?
I made my regular simple braid and wore a simple dress. I went behind civil park. I saw Sachin was already waiting for me there. He stood up from the bench and smiled at me. I too gave him a very weak smile. I went towards him holding my bag tight.
"I didn't expect that you will come" he said. He was looking nervous. I just nodded and looked down. "Please sit" he said and we both sat down.
'Arti, make it quick otherwise it will get more harder for you' my mind said.
He was about to say something but i interrupted.
"I know, what are you thinking. But i am not here what you are thinking for." I said and her eyes filled with confusion.
"See, what you want can never happen between us." I said bluntly.
"Don't you like me?" He asked in sad voice which broke my heart. But i couldn't express this to him.
"I do, but my parents, this society and my studies. I am more concerned for them right now. My father will kill me if he finds out anything. And more than that if anyone else finds out then my parents will die with embarrassment." I said trying to make him understand.
"But......we can work upon it" he said with lots of hopes.
I showed him my palm to stay still.
"Sachin, you will find someone better than me who can respond you the way you deserve. I am sorry." I left from there.
I broke his heart.
Only, i knew that how much I hated myself for doing that but what could I do. My parents are everything to me. I can do anything for them.
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